Morning energy

Well, started the morning rather fast and furious. Laundry, dishwashing (like that one took a lot of energy!), cleaning, etc. Then by 10:00 - meltdown. Had to sit down for a good bit to regain my "get up and go", as my grandmother used to say.

Probably a good thing - having to sit and think for a bit. I do an excellent job of "doing", acting furiously through a day's activities. This gives me terrific reasons not to think about what I'm doing, or even what I really want to do. Riding the crest of daily events and letting the minutiae rule my direction is easier. Stopping to consider what's important and where I really want/need to go at a strategic level is seldom in my browser.

Multiple sclerosis has done a good job in making me slow down and think a bit. Not that I'm glad to have MS. However, I am trying to be a bit more concerned with where my life's headed.

When I get time, that is. I hear the dryer buzzing now, so I'll have to put "thinking" on hold, while I fold clothes.

Oh well, so much for taking charge of the larger picture.

I'm back!!

okay, I took a vacation for awhile. Actually, a literal vacation with my family. It was my folks' 50th wedding anniversary, so my parents and my brother and I took a long trip, visiting many of the places we lived as a family.

Started with a flight home to meet up with everyone for the trip. I caught myself wishing the clouds out of the way as we landed, so that I could see the city that I grew up in better. Got somewhat testy when they wouldn't move out of the way fast enough. I started noticing some interesting shapes to the clouds, kinda like when I was a kid and we looked for animals in the sky. Then I noticed textures and colors. I realized there was a whole landscape of fantasy and imagination at my window as we descended. Seems I had just started enjoying the skyscape when we broke through the clouds and found the earth hurtling towards us with exhilirating speed.

Made me wonder how many other times I've been anxiously waiting for something to appear and have missed the wonder all around me in the meantime.

Guess now's a good time to start living in the present. Or at least as good a time as any.