Forsaken

My God, My God, why have I forsaken you? The very things I do not want to do seem to consume my time and thoughts. How will you forgive me if I cannot forgive myself?

I am so internally focused at this time of need by so many others. Shame engulfs me as shadows in winter. Indeed, it's odd that I feel so cold and quiet in these days of record heat. My purpose wanders, listless, as my keel is broken.

Is there purpose? What am I to do? I need faith, guidance, forgiveness and love.

And the scripture is right - most of all, I need love.